Everything tastes good with gravy

I am having one of those extremely hypochondriac months. I have to get my annual blood work done today since the last time I had it done was 2 years ago. Also I have cavties. Then on the 14th I have to have my annual womens appointment. I hate waiting until the last minute because now I have to do everything at once. I honestly can not wait until all of this is done and I DONT have anything wrong with me.

On a different note...

I am loving this rainy weather and it has strangly inspired me to join a mother daughter class. Something we can do together. It will give us something to do as I feel all we do is sit lazely around the house.

Life As We Know It

I am considering a couple changes in my life right now that will most likely benefit me. We have just moved into the new hosue and it is wonderful as always. What is not so wonderful are our finances. We used to have this big hole of debt and in the last couple of years this hoel has slowly closed up. Now thi hole is starting to re-open and I can feel my insides getting weak. It all started after I lost my AMAZING job from providence as a hospice aid. I knew it was onyl temporary but for those last couple weeks I held out my hopes in getting on full-time. Now here I am back at work in a nursing home and HATE IT! How did I get backwards?

So here are the things I am going to change.

My mood:

I can not change what is happening to us right now. I need to accept the fact that things will be tough for the next couple months but eventually we will get a break. I will hopefully be done with school by next summer and hopefully get a WAY better job.

My choices:

I need to stop basing my decisions on how others will percieve me. This is a lose:lose situation. I want to start living my life the way our family intended it. HAPPY.

My Finances:

F*** them.

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no but really. I can not change the position we are in so I am going to stop redoing my budget every hour to see if there is some hidden loop to achieve more money. It is what it is!

On a happy note...

I love my house

pottytraining day 1

Day one of potty training started out succesful and is currently becoming stressful. Sophie peer in the potty within thirty minutes of trying and I started cheering and she started laughing. We walked to the toilet and dumped it out together than I gave her some chocolate. Ever since then she's piddled a couple times on the floor and now she is currently napping so we will see.

My Daughter Likes to Fall

So I was reading this article about how if you pretend to wobble as your child does and fall down laughing it will make them feel better about there walking. It is also supposed to boost their self-esteem by letting them know everyone falls down sometimes...

Sophie likes to fall now. It is so cute.. she will run and jump on her behind with an ending.. "Umph"!

Life is so wonderful right now. I am currently working towards my internship in February and Jared is getting ready to go back to school.

They call her LOVE

I am so happy right now, and am glad the direction my life is going. Jared and I went from stopping a wedding, to counseling, to being happy, to now getting ready to get married! This time feels right and I am so happy I get to be Mrs. Swehosky soon. February 24th, matter of fact. I hope my wedding is so beautiful, like it is in my dreams!

Also I have decided to train for a marathon by next year. I am starting a 5k this August, which isnt that bad.

SOPHIE IS WALKING FOR REAL!

Internet Scams

It's always nice to wake up in the morning and do your online banking only to discover there is an anonymous tune of $34.95 taken out of your account. After doing the detective work I find out it is from a website (much like netflix) that was supposed to have been free. In fact it said... "FREE NOTHING WILL BE TAKEN OUT OF YOUR ACCOUNT"..... I guess since reading that I didn't think it wasa very necessary to worry. WRONG! I guess it is my own damn fault though. That is what you get for falling for it I guess. lol

On a different note. Life in the land of Jessica is going pretty awesome. I like my new job even though it is still nursing home work. The employee's are nice there and the work load isn't so strenuous that you want to die (Like Puget Sound Healthcare).

I still plan-plan-plannin away on this wedding. It is kind of fun. The hardest part is planning our honeymoon. I have so many options....

*Hawaii
*Whistler, Cananda
*Leavenworth
*Disneyland

Which one?

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