A Time to Recount the Good Things

There is a time in everyones life where you just have to sit back and think about all the positive in your life. Sometimes things can be so difficult, and so overwhelming that it is too hard to not freak out. We as a people find ourselves stuck into a position in which we are hanging by a thread. Well, at least in our minds. I have been to this place and it is terrorizing. So many things have been running through my head and I just want to bolt. Anxiety starts to kick in and I immediately find I have the, "Fight or Flight", response. It has gotten to the point sometimes that even leaving the house can be too much. So today, I told myself I am going to make alist of all the happy and positive things I have going for me. I think sometimes people get so caught up in their misery that they forget how amazing they have it. Like the story goes..someone somewhere has it WAY worse. When I get down and sad I just remember the starving children in third world countries and suddenly feel selfish for even being sad. So here is my newly renovated positve list. This list is a constant reminder of all the reasons and needs of me staying sane.

Jessica's Positive Things

1.) I am encouraged by a smile

- Wether it be a stranger or a friend, a smile always seems to lift my spirits up.

2.) My daughter is a miracle

- This statement is true in so many ways. Not only is she a miracle for staying in my belly as long as she did (due to uterine isssues), but she is a miracle in every other reason. Her innocence is beautiful.

3.) Jared makes me laugh.

- I know this sounds corny, but Jared makes me laugh. This is the main reason I love him. No matter how I feel I still can be around him and feel the urge to let out a good laugh.

Google = No Sleep

So a couple weeks ago I discovered I got tendonitis from an injury at work. I thought I would google it..


BIGGEST MISTAKE EVER

Google is scary. I typed in my symptoms and got over 20 diseases, some that result in death. I know its my fault but I can not help it. The title of my blog was no joke. I literally have anxiety about anything. I am very in tune with my body so I notice any little symptom that appears. It is quite the burden. I am have a Dr. appt. tomorrow to check up on my tendonitis as it is not getting better. I am hoping to get everything cleared up and have my mind put to ease.

and I'm feeling good...

Doesn't everyone watch that new Jennifer Hudson commercial and immediately feel super sexy? Well I do lol

Life is regaining conciouseness in the Swehosky household and I feel as if I can finally breathe again. For those that might be aware of what happened....know that I am alright...better yet amazing. I have a way of looking on the bright side of everything even if it looks crappy momentarily. For those that are not aware please sway your mind from wondering as it wont do you any good. I am moving on and I do NOT wish to talk about it.

So... In 1 month and 1 day I will become Mrs. Swehosky. Let me tell you..it's been a long time comin. I am so excited and I can honestly say for BOTH of us that our fairy tale day will be appearing soon.  We have lots to look forward to. Next week we will be visiting Jared's brother who is getting ready to be deployed to Japan. I am looking forward to his mom's lasagna as it is honestly to die for. The following week Jared is going on his annual snowboard trip for his good friends birthdays and I know he is super stoked about that. The next couple weeks following will be spent hastingly preparing a wedding. After wedding day we are going to Leavenworth for some skiiing and etc. Than I start my internship for school and a whole new lifestyle change. It is going to be very exciting over here at the Swehosky family's household.

2011

This year is going to be so amazing. I have so many things to look forward to.

Sophie is starting to feel better and the antibiotics seem to be working better. Jared and I are going on a date tonight and I am very excited. It has been awhile since we have been able to have a date night without Sophie. Not that we do not love bein around Sophie 24/7 but it is always nice to have some alone time now and then. Well It is only 1 month and 19 days until I am Mrs. Swehosky. I am so super excited. A little nervous but excited :)

*Happy New Years Eve*

I am going to look back on this year and remember the good things about it!

1.) Starting my Medical Assistant Program

2.) Celebrating Sophie's 1st birthday

3.) Going to Seaside with the family

4.) Moving into our first house ever!

5.) Being blessed with amazing friends and family

6.) Watching Sophie grow older another year

7.) Jared and I's anniversary

8.) Our interesting Camping adventure lol

9.) Sophie's first time trick-or-treating

10.) An amazing Christmas :)

Looking forward to 2011 :)

There is something in the water

Today is a day like any other day with the exception its not. :)

Sophie and I are hanging out watching sprout. Thinking about working on my pink knit blanket. My mom was nice enough to get me some beautiful knitting needles and yarn and I have been making a baby blanket. Sophie was up all last night with coughing and weezing. We started her on her antibiotics and are hoping she starts to feel better. The weather says it should snow today...I sure hope so :)

Sinus Infection

Poor Sophie. She has not been eating all day and had a bad cough so we finally decided to take her to the After Hours Clinic. Turns out she has a sinus and throat infection. Dr. put her on some antibiotics. I do not like seeing her sick and she is generally a very healthy baby. I just had to rock her too sleep as she seemed soo miserable. Hope the humidifier will help her. Hate when there is nothing I can do as a parent but wait and hope they feel better.

On another note this rain has been making me angry as I want to go on a walk. With Sophie sick I can obviously not go, which means I am stuck in the house even onger than I want. This is what I dislike about my town. There are not too many indoor activity places you can take your child. I have been trying to convince Jared to move to Olympia so we could do more things. One thing we are thinking about doing anyways is Kindercare Musik Class. Its a music class that lasts about two months were babies can leanr some music skills.

Oh 2011 you can not come any faster :)

So many happy things await us